Love letters to the dead

Dear reader,

I picked this book for June (and July as it seems) because I saw so much about it on Tumblr. I didn’t really know what to think about it so I wanted to give it a go.

Now, I really don’t know what Maxx thought of this one, cause last time we talked about Smaxx she hadn’t finished it, and unlike last time, I really don’t know.
But I do know that I didn’t think it was going to head this way.

This story is about a girl who gets an English assignment, the entire class has to write a letter to a dead person. She writes the letters, but they aren’t really letters. They’re more like diary entrees, but with a different name at the top every time.

The way it was written, with the letters and stuff, it made me think of Perks of being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky.

Anyways.. I actually really liked this book. I think it shows that even though people don’t act like it, there might be more behind their smile.

See you next month with a new book.

Much love,



Is it just me or…

Dear readers,

I like think that death is not the end of it all. And not because I don’t want life to end, not at all. It’s just that it’s a soothing thought. You know, people not just disappearing. Like they’re still here, watching over us. Like a guardian angel. It’s nice to feel like someone’s watching over you, making sure you won’t do anything stupid or life-ruining. It’s feels safe. And less lonely too.

Now I don’t like to call it heaven, though. It sounds so unreal and fictional. Overrated even. I don’t think this place really has a name, for me it doesn’t. But if I had to put it on a map, it would be named ‘imagination’ or ‘our hearts’. And even if it really is just my imagination, I don’t care. It feels peacefully to think that all the people  I’ve loved and lost are somewhere out there. Together. Taking care of each other. Maybe even waiting for me to join them.

Yes, it’s ok for you to call me crazy or deluded. I don’t think I can or want to live without the thought of them still being with me. People who really love you, never leave your side.

Much love,


Suicide Awareness Day – Make the world a better place

Dear reader,

Monday September 10th was World Wide Suicide Awareness Day. People wearing something yellow and writing love on their wrists. All to show people that they care. They care about you and your story, about how you feel. They want to make sure that you don’t feel left out, that you feel loved and beautiful. They want to show you that if something is wrong, you can talk to them, ask them for advice.

Too bad it’s all just for one day. And it’s even worse that it’s necessary.

If people just stood up for one another or if they just ask people how they’re doing every now and then… Just send some love to the people around you, even if they’re just strangers.
Go sit with the guy who’s having lunch all by himself. Stand up for that shy girl when they bully her. Give someone your attention, make sure they feel wanted.

If we’d all be a little bit nicer to each other, this day would be irrelevant. Say hello to a stranger on the street, smile when you walk past people. Because one single smile can make a different. It can lighten someone’s mood and make them feel better.

We shouldn’t have to wear yellow to send out a message to the ones that don’t like living. It’s shouldn’t be just one day out of 365 to make people aware of self-harm and suicide.

In Holland on average 4,5 people commit suicide every day. That’s a lot. And it’s not necessary. So give some love to the people around you and talk to them. Make someone’s day a little bit better by doing something nice out of the blue.

And don’t just blow this away. It’s important. You might not know how it feels to loose someone this way. But I do. I know how it feels to blame yourself for not sending enough love, or not being able to help someone, because they’re already so far gone. Nobody should have to deal with this, so make sure no more people will.

Let’s see how many lives we can change. Let’s see how many people we can save.

Much love,