It’s kind of a funny story

Dear reader,

It’s the end of February and that means that yet another Smaxx-month has passed. So let’s review another book.

In our little Smaxx world, February was all about this book; It’s kind of a funny story, written by Ned Vizzini. The cover says that this is a very important book and I can only agree. In It’s kinds of a funny story the author gives you a quick peek inside the head of a person who’s dealing with a depression. Not a chance you get very often.

I have to say it was very good, but also very confronting. I really recognized myself in some ways. His train of thoughts, the distress.. that scared me a bit sometimes. But the way Craig (the main character) dealt with this all was very inspiring. Let me explain.

When a person is depressed, they often don’t see the good sides of life anymore. And when everything in their lives turns to black, there’s no stopping them anymore. They kill themselves if they dare. But not Craig. Craig is so stressed about his school stuff and his future that he wants to throw himself of the Brooklyn Bridge. The easy way out. But he stresses even more when he doesn’t know what to do with his bike.
He takes one of his mom’s books How to survive the loss of a love and looks up what to do when feeling suicidal. He then calls the suicide hotline and they tell him to go to the hospital. And before he knows it, he’s admitted himself to Six North, adult psychiatric.

And I think this is so brave. There aren’t many people who think that clearly.

I do have to say. When I was about halfway through the book, I started to recognize this story. It turns out that there’s a movie based on this book. And guess what.. I’ve seen that movie.

So if you don’t like reading, you could always watch the movie. I’m being real here. Do it. Watch it. Read it. Live it. It ís important to know what a depression can do to a person. And I know that suffering from a depression is different for everyone, but at least it’s a start. There should be more of these books, just to get people to understand.
And this is real. Ned Vizzini wrote this a week after being released from his own Six North.

So all in all, I think this is one of the most important books on my shelve.

Maxx, I hope you feel the same way I do. I really hope you enjoyed my choice of books for February and I will see you in March!

Much love,



Think before you say some things

Dear reader,

September sixth was on a Friday this year. And on that day, around 9.30 am, the majority of my classmates agreed on the matter that every person who is depressed should just simply kill themselves. Their argument? It would make the world a better place.

Those who did not agree, chose to stay entirely silent, so I don’t actually know their thoughts on this matter. I stayed silent as well, because I was simply too shocked to say anything.

However, I am one hundred per cent sure that if I would ask them about this, they’d either not remember talking about it, or they’d tell me it was a joke and that I should loosen up a bit and laugh about it.

But when you hear people say stuff like this, when you’re actually fighting a depression, it sticks with you. Joke or not. As a matter of fact, it hasn’t left my thoughts ever since… I just keep thinking about it. What if they are right? But they aren’t right. Right? Wouldn’t it be better to portrait ourselves as fighters? To show them how strong we actually are?

People really shouldn’t say things like that. Ever. You never know who might hear you and how much it can damage a person. What if someone with a depression might actually commit suicide after hearing someone say stuff like that? Even if they don’t know you. Could you live with such a burden? I think not!

I think the world would actually be a better place if everyone would start caring for each other a bit more. And if we would help one another instead of telling others to kill themselves.

Please just think before you speak.

Much love,



Suicide Awareness Day – Make the world a better place

Dear reader,

Monday September 10th was World Wide Suicide Awareness Day. People wearing something yellow and writing love on their wrists. All to show people that they care. They care about you and your story, about how you feel. They want to make sure that you don’t feel left out, that you feel loved and beautiful. They want to show you that if something is wrong, you can talk to them, ask them for advice.

Too bad it’s all just for one day. And it’s even worse that it’s necessary.

If people just stood up for one another or if they just ask people how they’re doing every now and then… Just send some love to the people around you, even if they’re just strangers.
Go sit with the guy who’s having lunch all by himself. Stand up for that shy girl when they bully her. Give someone your attention, make sure they feel wanted.

If we’d all be a little bit nicer to each other, this day would be irrelevant. Say hello to a stranger on the street, smile when you walk past people. Because one single smile can make a different. It can lighten someone’s mood and make them feel better.

We shouldn’t have to wear yellow to send out a message to the ones that don’t like living. It’s shouldn’t be just one day out of 365 to make people aware of self-harm and suicide.

In Holland on average 4,5 people commit suicide every day. That’s a lot. And it’s not necessary. So give some love to the people around you and talk to them. Make someone’s day a little bit better by doing something nice out of the blue.

And don’t just blow this away. It’s important. You might not know how it feels to loose someone this way. But I do. I know how it feels to blame yourself for not sending enough love, or not being able to help someone, because they’re already so far gone. Nobody should have to deal with this, so make sure no more people will.

Let’s see how many lives we can change. Let’s see how many people we can save.

Much love,